Children of Addicted Parents and People

Hello.
I wrote to COAP a couple of weeks ago explaining my situation.
It has got worse since then.
My stepdad is still drinking heavily and i have had alot of trouble from his daughter (my step sister) about somehing stupid.
About 2 weeks ago, on Sunday morning, every thing had got so bad that i got myself so worked up.
I tried to slit my wrists and then i took an overdose.
I had my stomach pumped and was sectioned for a week when they finally let me home.
Since then i have been drinking every night. i drink alot anyway, and i am so scared of becoming what i hate the most-an alchoholic.
i dont want to be something i hate so much.
i have councelling 3 times a week and connexions meetings. but i dont find talking to people helps.
It just makes me so angry bringing everthing up.
i want to change so much, i really do.
i get so stressed out i keep having blackouts.
im moving up North in august (about ten months away)
im going on my own to live with my aunties. (was my dads foster mum but i call her auntie)
Hopefully i will finally get a new start and i can finish my mechanics course up there or do hairdressing.
my mum always tells me that im special and shouldnt let things get me down.
she says im special because i was her first-born daughter :)
i jsut want everything to go away....
Help.
x