Hello. I wrote to COAP a couple of weeks ago explaining my situation. It has got worse since then. My stepdad is still drinking heavily and i have had alot of trouble from his daughter (my step sister) about somehing stupid. About 2 weeks ago, on Sunday morning, every thing had got so bad that i got myself so worked up. I tried to slit my wrists and then i took an overdose. I had my stomach pumped and was sectioned for a week when they finally let me home. Since then i have been drinking every night. i drink alot anyway, and i am so scared of becoming what i hate the most-an alchoholic. i dont want to be something i hate so much. i have councelling 3 times a week and connexions meetings. but i dont find talking to people helps. It just makes me so angry bringing everthing up. i want to change so much, i really do. i get so stressed out i keep having blackouts. im moving up North in august (about ten months away) im going on my own to live with my aunties. (was my dads foster mum but i call her auntie) Hopefully i will finally get a new start and i can finish my mechanics course up there or do hairdressing. my mum always tells me that im special and shouldnt let things get me down. she says im special because i was her first-born daughter :) i jsut want everything to go away.... Help. x
