Children of Addicted Parents and People

Swings and roundabouts. that's the closes description of my life. You see me and my family are actors on stage playing out these parts like our life depends on it. My mum is the lead. I play off her. She doesn't live life, it seems life is to unbearable in some way so she hides everyday in the bottom of a vodka bottle. I'm a versatile actor, I'm the carer, the hold it together girl, the angry on, the passive one, the i can do this girl, the i can't do this anymore girl, the brave one, the weak one, the take it on the chin girl, the beaten and broken one, ect.
today is an example of act one, denial. I go to mums, shes drunk. i storm out swearing i won't step back in her flat until she gets help. two weeks from now she will ring and be sober. say things will change, she will change. my lines will be "okay i will come and see you". i go running, couple months later it starts again. swings and roundabouts.