My mum been an alcoholic for an awfully long time and they way she is now is the only way i actually the way me and my brother rememeber her it is sad, because my dad has told me a thousand times she was never like this the way she is now and she loved me and my brothers but, proberly the hardest thing for me and my brother is actually we have no actual memory of her like that and for me thats the world's most heartbreaking thing for me because were i'm only seventeen and my mum been an alcoholic since i was little i don't rememeber the mum that i felt i could say i love you because i meant it and i say it not to hurt her feelings or cause an arguement. even tho i know her drinking not my fault i feel like she blames me for everything and this what really upset me lately when it snowed she decided to join us outside for a snowball fight and what upset me the most she decided to act like my mum and treat me like her daughter not the usually invisible person thats not even worth the mud on the bottom of your shoes and it made me well angry that she did that i mean why can't she be like that all the time and it made me so angry i took most of it out on my friend when i didn't mean too =[. i've told some friends that i trust about her but when i tell them what happens they don't know what to say cause they don't wanna make it worse, my mum has put me off for alcohol for life it makes me sick everytime she drunk because of the stupid alcohol my childhood been ruined and all i wanna now is why the hell she did it changed from the mum i found photos of with me before she was like this why the hell she decided to chuck it all away for an answer that won't be at the bottom of a bottle of no return just why!
