Alright so when i was around in the 7th grade my mom and her boyfriend split up from a 10 year relationship. She had a son with him and he let her for a stripper, to her knowledge. Since then its been rock bottum for our household. She began drinking excessively EVERY weekend. She then began going out every other week day night. Its been getting worse every year. I dont know what to do this has been going on for so long. When i began my freshmen year in highschool i noticed she began taking depression pills. During freshmen year ive seen her drunk multiple times in one week. I live with my grandma and two other brothers. My grandma gives her a hard time and argues with her whenever she goes out because she knows shes going to drink. During my freshmen year she met a really good guy, he helps with the bills, helps be handy around the house and doesn't drink. But the problem is he does nothing to stop my mom from drinking and going out with her friends. I've have become so stressed ever since she started that i cant focus in class, my grades slip, my weight goes up and down dramatically, i have suicidal thoughts, i sometimes cry myself to sleep. My teachers cut me no slack because they always tell me i could do better and should be in a honors class. Her current boyfriend had to take a job in another state to support us because he lost the job here. Shes gotten worse and has moved on to more addictions such as gambling and bulimism. She finally hit rock bottum when she lost her job. It began when her boss gave her two weeks off to let her get her life back together because she would come in hung over or always miss ATLEAST a day every week. So she took the week off telling me it was a vacation, though i knew better. She took no incentive on going to a rehab center or seeking help, a week after she returned to work i remember she went out one night, she didnt come home until the next night and was only there for about 5 minutes and left again. That night she came home tipsy and crying saying that her boss called her up that morning saying that she was left go. She explained to me that it was because a girl complained about her at work, but i knew better, because what employe gets to miss a day every week. My grandma and i thought it could only get better from here since she lost her job but it didnt since she starting being bulimic and gambling a every day practice. She bing drinks until she passes out in my basement which she does frequently, she bing eats and makes herself vomit while running the sink full blast which makes her think no one else in the house hears her but we do, we just pretend like its not there to avoid the subject. She has a large morgage to pay that is 1,800. But her boyfriend gets 900 a week and her unemployment gives her 500 a week. Thats ample to pay for the morgage and other bills. Our dental and insurance recently exspired so i have none and i have wisdom teeth that constantly hurt. Before it exspired my biological dad sent me the money to get them pulled but she said i could wait, now i have no dental and she probably took her money anyway. Its so stressful because with her pills she acts extremely nice one day and if i look at her wierd or ignore it she askes me what my problem was, but the next day she can be in the worst mood ever and be yelling around the house. She just walked in my room talking with her boyfriend on the phone and asked me what new cell phone i wanted for christmas, i told her that i rather have my wisdom teeth pulled out since they hurt almost every day and she got upset and walked out and told my little brother who was in my room to go with her. Shes always complaining about how she has so many bills but she has a set amount of money each month and she knows how much is what so she shouldnt be spending money on gambling, fast food and alcohol if she knows how much she has to pay already. She doesnt buy me cloths, my aunt usually gives me a few hundred dollars in the beggining of the school year to get me new cloths shoes book bag and cover my equipment for sports so she doesnt have to worry about spending money on me because she doesn't. Her addictions have gotten so bad that she would get drunk and find a 24/7 cvs and buy 100 dollars worth of scratch offs. She goes to the casino often and never wins. I dont know what to do because i know it must hurt being left after a ten year relationship but her love for her children should over come any addiction in my opinion. Anyways im in my junior year of highschool and her situation isnt getting any better, ive tried hinting her on like ignoring her or being upset around her because whenever i try to talk to her about anything she gets mad at me. Any advice?
