Hi there,
My name is Emma and i am 19 years old. So not technically a child any more but i feel like this is the only place i can get the help i need.
My mum has been an alcoholic since i can remember. My mum and Dad divorced when i was 6 and i had to move in with family.She drunk cider every night.. the 3,5 litre bottles
My mum has an important job and uses this as a reason for her drinking alot. she also blames me and my sister for leaving home and on her own. she blames my dad and our family
To be honest we are a very normal and friendly family everyone is always there for each other and we have never had family arguments or anything.
I had to get help when i was in senior school (11-16) because i began turning my fustration into anger and agression and was fighting in school and being difficult with teachers and doing anything i could for attention.
My mum tried to kill herself when i was 14 and drunk so much she had a fit. We found out she had run out of drink and drunk purfume because of the alcohol content in it!...
she was again admitted to hospital a few weeks after being released for having another Fit due to a lack of vitamins or some sort and was taken to intensive care.
Since then she got better and drunk only occasionally still binging from time to time but drinking wine instead...
When i got older she began stealing any drink she found in my room or my sisters if we had it.. she had keys to the neighbours hous and started going in there when she had to feed their cats and drinking anything she could find...
I moved out when i was 18 about 100 miles away to go to university and couldnt keep an eye on her any more and she carried on getting worse ... she would forget birthdays and not give presents to family or me and my sister
She started missing ALOT of work and now only goes 50% of the time even though its a 9-5 ... she had binged all christmas this year and since the 23rd not been sober and its now 28th ... she is severely underweight and doesnt eat... she wasnt sober xmas day and didnt come for the family dinner on boxing day... she managed to fall down the stairs the year before at christmas.
I am finding this so stressfull i really dont know what to do... my mum needs help and i have tried everything... No one in my family understands what she is like.... my dad isnt really there for me or my sister ...
she refuses to get help and knows she has a problem.. she often is open with the fact that she doesnt want to live.
I have caught her getting out of bed at 5am to drink beer hidden in her room and baileys at 7am....
my family have been over to try and help but she just lies to them and they believe her!
I really want her to stop because she is killing herself and i dont think she has much longer before her body gives up but she will not get help ...!! we have tried councelling and all sorts and she just tells us to go away .. when she is sober she just will not talk about it..
I just found her outside my house in a bush finding a 350ml bottle of vodka she had bought today that she has drunk straight .. she also drunk a bottle of whiskey 1ltr today but she wont tell us where it is...
overall in the last 7 days shes had about 17 bottles of wine 8 beers 3 largers ,baileys, bottle of vodka , whiskey, alcopop, thats as much as we can find around the house...
she needs to sort herself out but she refuses and im scared she'll lose her job but it will make it worse if she does.. she refuses to go out regularly with friends and just drinks at home alone....
someone please help me i know ive written alot and i hope i havent bored you i just dont know what to do... i've run out of options :-(
Emma
