I know this might seem really stupid to some people, I have only ever posted here once before, but right now, I have two problems in my life.
The first, the heartbreak. I was with my ex, my first love, for three years and have been in love with him for five. We broke up in September as we both went to seperate unis but continued to see eachother, visit eachother and we're still acting like we were together. Then a month ago, we decided this was no healthy and that we were going to stop talking for a little while. Two weeks later I found out he had a new girlfriend, even though he told me we were going to get back together. I just feel incredibly hurt and overwhelmed that I am still so in love with him and he has moved on. It's awful. He used to support me when my mom was in a bad place, when I was on the brink of despair, now hes not here.
My second problem. My mom is an alcohol and has bad patches and good patches. At the moment, I really need my mom. I really need her to look after me when I'm heartbroken and tell me everything is ok but I can't have it because she's drunk. I just want my mom to hold me and look after me but she's drunk and I don't know what to do or say to make her stop. I don't have many friends at home and I literally spend my days round the house. I really, really need my mom.
The problem is, the two problems are going hand in hand. I'm heartbroken and need the support of my mom. But my moms drunk and I need the support of my ex. I just, don't know what to do. I don't know how to mend a broken heart and I don't know how to make my mom see sense.
I'm 19 years old and she has been this way since I was 3. I can't take it anymore. I just want to live a normal life.
