Hi I am new on here and I need someone to talk to who will understand and maybe give some advise. First of all I am 15 almost 16 and my mother used to be addicted to alcohol and now is addicted to Oxycontin. For those out there who don't know what Oxycontin is it is an opiate aka (hillbilly heroine)Oxycontin is a opiate that is prescribed by doctors for the use of pain.A man made heroine,Lets start at the beginning when, was 3 my mother used to be a heavy alcoholic she used to drink almost everyday and as a result of that she was pretty careless at times when it came to raising my epileptic sister and I.Now my sister is two years older than me and still suffers very bad epilepsy,My mother didn't have the most normal upbringing,But sometimes I see that as no excuse for treating my sister and I the way she did.She used to leave my EPILEPTIC sister and I at home and again for those out there who don't know what epilepsy is it a sickness sometimes genetic sometimes can be caused from either being dropped on the head or taking a bad blow to the head. And bruises the brain my sisters brain is bruised on the left lobe which is the worst place for it to be. The left lobe controls our speech and movement epilepsy causes electrical jolts which causes seizures (fits). When my sister was younger she used to have up to 200 yes 200 seizes a day.And my mother used to leave me home alone with her alot.She used to put us to bed wait till we fell asleep and then leave and go down to the pub down the road. My grandmother and grandfather used to take my sister with them and leave me with my mum, I used to be dragged around from pub to pub.I'd falling asleep under tables and used to be dragged around with strange men then along with the man that my mother used to be with at the time I would be taken back home. mum would get changed in the room and I would be standing at the door stopping the man from entering the room my mother was getting changed in. Anyway, it continued on like that or a long time,One night while my sister was in hospital getting tests for her epilepsy my mother was across the road drinking at a hotel.Got into a fight and broke a rib,She was prescribed Oxycontin. At first the nodding off and the pipe dreaming was pretty funny.But She became more dependant on them She tried methadone.But that didn't agree with her at all.So she started taking Valium and Sarapax.Which are benzodizapam (Benzos). Valium is for relaxing the muscles and sarapax is a sleeping aid.Then She started drinking with the benzos and they don't mix at all.She started get violent and started physically abusing me, and my mother is very strong.While she was to busy taking drugs I was being bullied getting and into fights. I was moved from that school to another, bullied again and I dropped out.As my mothers dependency grew stronger, the arguing became more frequent and so did the doses.Now my mother and I can't go one day without arguing,the thing is SHE starts them, and then says I do. I have depression and I keep on telling my mum with no results, she won't get me help.My depressions growing and so is my need to find a way out my only fear is.IS THERE! Does anyone have any feed back please. Teardrop123.
