Hey,
I'm 19 and even though I'm a little bit older I'm still finding it incredibly difficult to cope with my mum's drinking. I've had to deal with it ever since I was a kid, as far as I know she's been an alcoholic for years. Now I've come back from university for the summer I'm finding it so hard to deal with. She's a totally different person when she is drunk, she changes so much and it makes me so angry! I can't understand why she does it to herself and to all of us. Her and dad have really explosive arguments when she's drunk, she accuses him of all sorts when he comes in late from work, but I don't blame him to be honest, she's horrible to be around when she's drunk.
I feel like there's no one who really understands. My friends know that she is an alcoholic and they know that I struggle but none of them can really relate to it. They can't understand how angry and disgusted I feel at what she does to herself, but also how guilty I feel for hating her when she's drunk. It's not that I don't love her, it's just I hate what she does to herself.
Anyway, part of the reason I signed up to this was so I could help other people who are younger than me who are going through this. I know five years ago I was desperate for someone who could understand, who I could just talk to and relate to. So if you want to chat, or rant, or whatever, my inbox is always open. :)
