well, i left home 10/11 months ago, i didn't just leave i went over 300 miles away, and it was such a relief don't get me wrong!!.. but last month, i had to return home, because my dad was getting re-married... which i thought was ridiculous, he is in his 50's now, and i new he didn't want to married at all, but... well it wasn't down to me.. he's an adult now.... right ...??
well the day time of the wedding went Ok i thought, but it got to the evening, and my Dad's new 'Wife' was standing outside, crying in her dress.. then started swearing at me saying that i should sort my Father out.. so i went to get him, and he was rolling round, completely off his face on drink... he was making rude comments, looking in wrong places.. just terrible.. brought it all flooding back.
The thing was i wanted to do what ive always done, pick him up, carry him to bed, get him changed etc etc.... i wanted to sit at the end of his bed, an stay awake all night making sure he was ok, checking his pulse every hour... :''O( but it was out of my control...
basically he couldn't talk or stand by the end of the night... he started getting pervy.. so i said i was leaving.. in floods of tears, i wanted him to just be sober for one night.. i hadn't seen him in so long, i paid a lot money to try and look nice, paid a lot of money to get there and to be with him.. and then he acts like that!!!! WHATS WITH THAT!!... argh!
the next day i was texting him and ringing him to see if he was ok.. because he had know where to stay...
i didn't hear from him from a whole week.. i was worried sick.. i feared the worst.
now he doesn't live with the woman he married... he rang me yday, saying he was gnna sort himself out, he promised he was gonna make it up to me.. for not being there, and for not bothering for my 18th.... but i know there just empty promises....
i just want my dad to be a dad :''''O(
